shirafi!

anywho... back to the grind as everyone says... and i am not grinding hard enough i suppose, no classes, no schedule, no appeal... hmm you'd think me a slacker maybe? no. i have been to school every damn day trying to do these things, it is the people there that will not allow this to happen.

on a better note, i now have back a girlfriend i had stolen from me by my best friend 7 years prior so that he could exact his vengeance upon me for her liking me more than him... even though i knew her 2 years befor him and all that junk. he is now married to my ex girlfriend i dated while he dated her, so we uhh.... switched? kinda. six years can change alot. and since then my feelings for her havent changed at all, and hers for me are the same as always, the variable that made us break up was my best friend.

if she would have stayed with me then.... i dont know where id be now, probably somewhere with her, she would have finished school probably earlier, and been in college with me. i wish that happened back then, but no need to pry. i have another year before i can be with her completely, but in the year passing.... i want to be with her. so badly.

i will continue to date her from here, flying out every now and again to ease the pain of seperation. i trust her completely in my heart and mind. the other mind i have wont let me sleep some nights, but the simple sound of her voice is enough to lull my senses into sleep.

i am so calm with her, i am so... me.